Have trust, but how?

May 11, 2020By pencilfrustrated No Comments

One of my favorite quotes of Steve Jobs is the following: You can’t connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. So true, so difficult. In times of despair and doubt it’s incredibly hard to trust. Many … Read More

Rainy Sunday

May 7, 2020By pencilUncategorized No Comments

just chillin’……. After a week of sunshine, a day of rain feels like a nice little pause… So if you are reading my words at this moment, I encourage you to take a break from what you are doing, turn off your devices, take a blanket, and stare out of the window ……….it’s amazing what … Read More

one in a million

February 1, 2020By pencilmotivated No Comments

Some people like to stick out….I’m one of them. Average is not my style. I’m not saying it’s a bad thing to stay in your comfort zone. But sometimes it’s really worth to take a look over the edge and go for it. Daring something is a reward itself, even if the outcome is not … Read More


January 30, 2019By pencilmotivated No Comments

This year is very promising. There will be change in almost every part of my life. I have to say: It is very exciting. How do you adapt to change? In my past I have found that times of little daily routine and traveling were the happiest.

taking care

August 23, 2018By pencilInsights No Comments

Do you own things, that are so precious you would never throw them out, but repair them as long as possible? We are surrounded by products that are made to be trash. It makes me sick to think about it. Think about it, if we spend more money on high quality we can live in … Read More

win my own game

June 27, 2018By pencilInsights No Comments

Life is tough sometimes. I had to go through some rough times myself. I walked by a lady yesterday. The print on her t-shirt made an impact, because I remember it today. She was a middle aged, jogging stranger. Looking like she was winning her own game at that moment. Reflecting about it, I’m setting … Read More


April 19, 2018By pencilmotivated No Comments

I am fascinated by the effects of nature on me and my mood. I’m sitting outside, and I just witnessed two spotted woodpeckers having sex on the cherry tree. The garden is in transformation. Every day new leaves and blossoms appear. I feel totally at ease. And all it takes is to step outside and … Read More

Bitter roots – sweet fruits

March 13, 2018By pencilInsights No Comments

Sometimes the medicine of life is quite bitter. I’ve had to swallow a lot lately. It takes some discipline to do so. Having the persistence to overcome obstacles, even though there is no sight of the other side yet, can be challenging. I am convinced that the IDEA of what could be on the other … Read More

Happy Holidays?

December 29, 2017By pencilInsights No Comments

It’s this time of the year that marks a transition. Midwinter, the change of light and darkness. This is to all who lost someone this year. At times we are “stuck in reverse”, but then “lights will guide us home and ignite our bones” My favorite Interpretation of this song is this one by the … Read More

smoke and fog

November 19, 2017By pencilInsights No Comments

I like this time of the year. Plants are taking a break, the weather is bad most of the time. At least here in Austria…. So I don’t have to feel guilty to stay inside and chill. Now is the time to burn some incense. Sage, mugwort, lavender. Burning them feels almost like burning evidence. … Read More